I had a wonderful conversation with Phyl yesterday. We spoke about many things: healing self, balance, fear of greatness and Autumn as a time for renewal and change.

I have always loved the in between seasons of Autumn and Spring. They are my breath of fresh air that prepare me for the going in of winter and the coming out of summer.

I have just returned from being at the beach and enjoyed basking in the not too hot sun, feeling the breeze brush past my face and wondering…just wondering…

I started to do some writing and art exercises with my non-dominant (right) hand allowing myself to play and I was amazing at what was revealed to me…

…aging, anti-inflammatory

india, in there, intuition, indecision

not knowing who I am

what happened?

getting worse, spreading

spreading viral


damage to myself

I don’t want to walk yet but I’ve been told to run

how can they hurt me?

what are they doing to me?

Why not I keep saying why not?

questions and no answers

groused out by it all

wanting to be normal to be understood

to be listened to to be heard

always my intuition I listen to

all the time for people to trust me with that

Why is it still there?

and worse now more than ever?

Allow yourself to let go

to take a risk into the unknown

into the past

allow myself to hear and stop controlling

Break through to the other side

strong enough you know

you are

allow yourself to heal and be known

reach out and hold my hand

allow yourself to heal

I also did some drawing and as an artist I like to keep things within the lines and my lines have to be perfect so using my non-dominant hand was a totally different experience! My lines were free and it did not matter how they were placed upon the page and when I tried to stay within the lines I couldn’t! My hand was moving freely and at times uncontrollable.

The non-dominant hand can’t stay within the boundaries, it has to get out and be free.